Caught up with Xeno

Standing there, snarling beast-eyed

and in a state of quickening.

Suspensed by imagination,

frozen & forever in the endlessness of one instant,

just like Achilles, never catching a tortoise in

a race that took place only in Xeno’s mindseye.

That Rat Bastard (you know the one)

My musling is a Rat Bastard,

literally the rodent spawn of an out-of-wedlocker, and

figuratively, the asshole confessor priest and frenemy,

anon, anon.

But, Boy, can he dance and

how beautiful he sings!

The Ocean Was There

lnexorable is the Ocean, as is the beating and cut of my heart.

No entreaty can yield Its unyielding.

It & I remain ceaseless in Our relentlessness.

The Ocean makes neither demand upon nor encroachment toward

the shore of my heart

– yet both shoreline and waves never cease their enjoined shifting.

It Was A Wash-Out

Apres deluge comes the Fury,

and not vice versa.

A common misconception: the vice versa above, but not

Apres deluge comes the Fury.

Flood precedes Fury, although,

Fury may flood.

What is up with roman à clef: an ode

AE am16 years past 18 only to realize I just needed to tolle lege “roman à clef” or “à clef” as some dictionaries prefer.

After I did, a walrus showed up with a tooth pick, surely to eat me I assume! When he finally cracked the shell and got to my goodn’ tasty spots, the Walrus plucks out this tiny, heavy with gravity pebble which he proceeds to Pop in his face hole.

Next thing I remember, I’m standing alone on the shore. My body feels doubley massive…

–like some wave interference pattern is refracting my metabolism in some all to-

gether new way.

The original compound returns but it has extra dimensions/multitudes than it initially had, and yet the compound never underwent any physical change at all. It seemed like it did even though of course it wouldn’t; but, don’t you remember me promising to do the Algerian BootStrap feat for you? In fact, you will recall that I’ve already told you that I’ve stepped on stage and announced my intent. Furthermore, whether you revelate or not, the Trick is already afoot with its inexorable ways.

You can already hear the wheels turning if you listen hard.

Is it True?

You and I share a goal, I think.

 

To attempt to engage life as honestly as possible, and to ever be working towards ENGAGING that which scares you/us/me/them  in an effort to- maybe….one day…find ourselves at the doorstep of a place that we’ve always wanted to see [fka ‘be’] even though it’s a place that is unseen currently-but wait, that not quite the right way to put it.

 

More accurately, it is a place that a RELATIVELY small number of people ‘know’ about. But it is a place of ex·or·bi·tant power.

In Dreams

In my dream thePeople have come to theHouse just to put on the same show they had put on with giant marionnettes the previous night. I fell asleep with my head in Neil’s lap during this slight reprisal/respite/reprise(?)

I woke up in the smack-middle of the night, super ill. I walked into a bathroom to see my sickly green face looking back at me but then it became Neal’s face-it was his reflection before me but he was standing behind me, asking if I was alright. The optics and refraction math does not tally.

But no-matter, because then it was time to go to the theater. big red the carpet and the door was not tall.

The theater was not large.

We were given programs on our way into the theater. The program had one printed sentence only- inside the leaflet-and it simply read Your Body will Take Care of You.

We sit down and settle in and the movie started but all that appears is a black screen with white letters reading “don’t turn around”. And for just the time it took me to read those words, I then immediately begin to feel something, something tapping my back, mouthing and whispering, and frantically, hell, almost hysterically, trying to get MyAttention. It feels like a lesson of endurance and although I knew I wasn’t supposed to turn around:

How long can

you ignore the thing that is t-

ap,

tapping

you on the shoulder & saying ps-

-st, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pstvv, pstv, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, pst, ps

PSST,

pst, pst, pst, pst,

pst, pstpst

Utterly Inexorable, it was more than I could take.

I remember turning around

not by choice but just because and

then I woke up again and started again.

DaemonsDiabolusDervish (fictiony/early days)

Anon, Anon Dear Reader (readers render) delighted to find you still looking at my letter/s, my Epistle.

 

For this now, let’s simply concern ourselves with what in the world is meant by the word diabolus in the passage below*

 

“Other centuries sought safety in the union of reason and religion, research and asceticism.  In their Universitas Litterarum, theology ruled.  Among us we use meditation, the fine gradations of yoga technique, in our efforts to exorcise the beast within us and the diabolus dwelling in every branch of knowledge…[The] Glass Bead Game also has its hidden diabolus, that it can lead to empty virtuosity, to artistic vanity, to self-advancement, to the seeking of power over others and then to the abuse of that power.  This is why we need another kind of education beside the intellectual and submit ourselves to the morality of the Order, not in order to reshape our mentally active life into a psychically vegetative dream-life, but on the contrary to make ourselves fit for the summit of intellectual achievement. We do not intend to flee from the vita activa to the vita contemplativa, nor vice versa, but to keep moving forward while alternating between the two, being at home in both, partaking of both.” 1

Hesse, Hermann 1990 The Glass Bead Game: (Magister Ludi). New York: H. Holt pg. 237

 

One devil is the “beast within us”

The other devil (the ‘hidden’ one) is “dwelling in every branch of knowledge.”  This sounds like the The Devil who is in the details.  Where are branches of knowledge located?  In our minds? In the system of interactions occurring in our brains?  In the ether? In consciousness? Is this the same beast slithering in the branches of the forbidden Tree of Knowledge who met Adam and Eve in the Garden?

 

Upon eating from the Tree of Knowledge, did Adam and Eve gain nothing more than “empty virtuosity” or “artistic vanity” or the desire to possess and subsequently wield power?

 

Hesse says this “required a new type of education”  One that moved forward in both vita activa and vita contemplativa. We should be forever alternating between the two.  Instead of engaging in a binary opposition. The tension emerges from the dialectic theory and practice of weighing and reconciling juxtaposed or contradictory arguments for the purpose of arriving at truth especially through discussion and debate. This emerging tension should be the object of our inquiry.

 

Which side of a coin is really heads and which side is really tails?  That is a meaningless question.

 

In order to determine which face was Janus’ true face, shall we pit one face against the other in a death battle.  The surviving face must be the true face of Janus. (?) Well that is a dumb idea because there is one body serving two faces.  If the faces each could have their own brain, they would be in competition for control over the same two arms and legs. He would be injuring his own limbs in his effort to destroy the ‘wrong’ face.  Could such a fight even occur?

 

Knowledge is not necessarily knowing.  Knowledge only exists if there is a knower, right? I contend that there is only one meaningful way to use the word “Knowledge”: I know knowledge.

 

Consider the following:

 

“Many years ago, It was common knowledge that the Earth was flat.  Presently, it is common knowledge that the Earth is not flat. What was common knowledge many years ago disagrees with what is common knowledge today.”  

 

Is it true that the Earth is an orb?  I suppose it depends on who you ask, or to be more specific, when you ask.  

 

If you asked a common man many years ago, “Is it true that the Earth is flat.”  He would probably affirm that statement.  

 

If you asked someone today, “Is it true that the Earth is flat?”  She would probably say, “What? Of course not, they figured out that was incorrect a long time ago.  The Earth is round.”


So, does that mean that the people many years ago-who believed it to be common knowledge that the Earth is flat-were being untruthful?  Were they lying when they said it was true that the Earth was flat?

 

No-they just did not know their existing knowledge was delusion; anyone can have knowledge of (x).

 

Knowledge can’t be truly possessed in a tangible way; being able to transplant the eternal, energetic potential of verb-forms into the dirt of the transient, physical world of everyday life is no trick. lt is magic and it is also alchemy: as four fundamental processes can transmutate the eternal matter of a verb into a noun – a thing, person or place. Miraculous.

 

But, let’s consider 2 nouns: theChurch and theKnowledge, both nouns and both words of power, but the vibrations and reverberations resonate conscientiously when the etymology of theWord is paid proper libation prior to using theWord.of

 

Take theWord and theChurch. In my Tribe, aChurch is a place (noun). Sure they ofChurch sojourn to make Church a SacredPlace; and, yes, you, AngryScientist/S (ASS), I understand that the actions of aChurch make you feel all funny inside. It’s scary when your insides act weird. It is also confusing when someone rattles the bars of your howler monkey cage. Confusing b/c your monkey howls as a pig squeals-really GD loud&screeching. Confusing because why is someone trying to mess with your dumb monkey anyway? You didn’t do sh1te to theChurch monkeys……yep..mmh… you didn’t start the monkey cage-shake heard round the world.

 

Hey! A.S.S. zip it & find your seats again – we’ll get to this grievance later.

 

In the Battle of the Word/s above -theChurch beats theKnowledge for better conjurgation and for careful symbolic construction: an adept found time and resources to draft blueprints for theConstruction of theChurch, a holy man being sought to lead the emergent micro-community sojourningItself-into-existence by its own bootstraps. The edification of 1 noun,  theChurch, is made real in the transient, physical domain as soon as construction is completed.

 

thePathÖtheReligios, say whatever else you wilt, but I readily acknowledge Impeccability/n’ Word to theChurch, and to hell with however apologetic that ASS, as well as his, “less zealously” inclined contemporaries think I should be for endeavoring to speak about Affairs/ÖAcademia in such a seedy establishment as Church: filled with all sorts of monkey-cage shaking, ignorant WhiteTrash and/or unreasonable, irrational people who (infuriatingly) refuse to acknowledge Logical Positivism.

 

No?! You don’t know what LP is? Well, color-me-shucked & shocked. Bless their hearts, Religioso and Academia (both oh so concerned with their super-deep and super-meaningful, self-proclaimed quests: to abide in love, compassion, and dispassionate reason in order to transcend to a higher understanding about our world) don’t feel guilty for not having actually deeply investigated all the axioms that hold your worldview together. Yeah, it turns out there’s more to it than being able to list the steps in the scientific method. But trust us, we’ve seen how hard you are trying these days. One person holding 2 screens that pump information at your eyeballs.

 

Ahem-what was I talking about?

 

You cannot have knowledge, but you can Know knowledge.  I see no apparent disingenuous intent in the initial assertion that the Earth was flat.  My thought being that maybe there were no alternative propositions competing with the idea of a flat Earth.  In fact, the idea of flat Earth was possessed by man unawares. It informed his reality but did so without his awareness. The possibility of an alternative did not yet exist, had not been considered.  

 

Let us stop for a moment, and examine our basic object of inquiry in the scenario above-Earth

 

If there is one thing public education taught me about writing it is this—–if you begin your paper with “Webster’s Dictionary defines [insert object of study here] as [copy the definition verbatim from the dictionary here]”  you are a good writer. All textbooks say that doing this is a credible way to introduce your topic.

 

Merrium-Webster’s Unabridged defines the planet Earth as………

 

Okay, so Merrium-Webster’s Unabridged defines earth.

 

And abruptly, I now find myself stumbling through

a particular region of the world; Or else in

areas of land uncovered by water; or else in

the sphere of mortal life comprising the world with its lands and seas as distinguished from spheres of spirit life; Or else in

the fragmental material composing part of the surface of the globe

 

And finally, now at last, in the fifth core sense of earth, Merrium-Webster’s Unabridged defines earth as “ [a word] often capitalized : the planet upon which we live and which being about 93 million miles from the sun is the third in order of distance from the sun and which having a diameter at the equator of 7927 miles is the fifth in size among the planets — see PLANET table.

 

So, my object of inquiry is the planet Earth: specifically, the often-capitalized, proper-noun status, fifth core sense of earth laid out by Merrium-Webster’s Unabridged.

 

When did my object of inquiry come into existence?

 

Since the Copernican revolution of the 16th century, thinkers have regarded Earth as a planet like the others of the solar system. First, some Polish astronomer, Nicolaus Copernicus, proposes a Sun-centered model of the universe, next concurrent sea voyages begin providing proof that Earth is a globe, and lastly, some dude called Galileo goes and not only invents technology that allows him to peer far, far into the night sky, but also develops said technology into a physical telescope which he proceeds to look into, only to find himself seeing various other planets that appeared to be globes as well.

 

Wait, wait, wait, wait.  

 

Did I just say that the Earth came into existence in the 16 the century? Because, that does not sound right. The Earth has been around for….a long time.  My college professor James Bindon once told us, in class, that if you compress the amount of time the earth has existed (according the geological record) into a 12 month period of time, then humans would not have arrived at the global shindig until sometime after early morning on New Year’s Eve.  

 

To say that the planet Earth came into existence in the sixteenth century obviously feel to me to be resoundingly untrue and ridiculous.  

 

If someone told you that she had just today learned that the planet Earth came into existence in the sixteenth century, it does not seem unfair to imagine that you would be filled with confusion, disbelief, or think she was joking; because, surely no one would be avowing the verity of such a glaring and gross fallacy.  

 

I will.  I rebuke that assessment with great prejudice and here is why—-the diabolus of this conundrum does not dwell within my object of inquiry laid out above; this elusive diabolus dwells in the details-like those very long paragraphs of little, teeny-tiny words found at the bottom of the TV frame during commercials for car-sales events or pharmaceutical ads. This hidden diabolus whispers into my ear words and sentences filled with such axiomatic-like insistence that eventually I come to recite them all on my own. Constantly and involuntarily, in the manner of my heart’s beat and my eyelids’ blink, I catch myself silently singing the song of “all things are either true or not, right or incorrect, existence occurs in a void, you exist in that void too, that void is created by external boundaries which you will never surmount. There are truths about the things existing in the void with you, but they are knowable only from the other side of the walls which bind you within the void.”

 

My object of study-the planet Earth-(which I lay out with concise and explicit exposition above) is neither real nor unnatural, true nor false.

 

Here is how showing is different from saying.   

 

Chapter IX | Horror Fiction

The case for horror literature

Stephen King makes his case for the

…the horror story as both literature and entertainment, a living part of twentieth-century literature…They are books and stories which seem to me to fulfill the primary duty of literature— to tell us the truth about ourselves by telling us lies about people who never existed.”

Danse Macabre, Stephen King

Parse & Parser


The word ‘paragon’ entered the cultural consciousness in the 16th Century.

par·a·gon

ˈperəˌɡän/

noun

noun: paragon; plural noun: paragons

  1. a person or thing regarded as a perfect example of a particular quality.

    “it would have taken a paragon of virtue not to feel viciously jealous”

Origin-mid 16th century: from obsolete French, from Italian paragone ‘touchstone used to discriminate good (gold) from bad,’ from medieval Greek parakonē ‘whetstone.’Original Source

Parcel


parse v. 1 resolve (a sentence) into its component parts and describe their syntactic roles
Computing analyse (text) into logical syntactic components
-Origin C16: perh. from ME pars ‘parts of speech’, from Fr. pars ‘parts’
syntax n.the combination  of words and phrases to create well formed sentences > a set of rules for or an analysis of this the structure of statements in a computer language
-Origin C16: from Fr. syntaxe, or via late L. from Gk suntazis, from sun-‘together’ + tassein  ‘arrange’
Concise OED 11th th

 Sunday School Religiousness in the American Deep South. 
 I speak from my experience and not hard numbers and facts.  
So what I say will be true of my experience. And, what I extrapolate from my experiences will be messy and imprecise.

This not a scholarly approach. I’d like to share my thoughts as a cultural player. 

Performances of scholarly work in public forums must come clean to the audience at every possible misstep.

 

matter and/or matter of fact

 

We have to ask ourselves whether, in any sense at all, there is such a thing as matter…It we cannot be sure of the independent existence of objects, we shall be left alone in a desert–it may be that the whole outer world is nothing but a dream, and that we alone exist. ..there is no logical impossibility in the supposition that the whole of life is a dream, in which we ourselves create all the objects that come before us.  But although this is not logically impossible, there is no reason whatever to suppose that it is true; and is no reason whatever to suppose that it is true.

    Bertrand Russell

Look up avalanche?

New Doc 2017-04-17 (1)_3-01The World’s Worst Disasters. Season 1; Episode 4-Alpine Avalanches. Lazy Saturday of indulging in ‘this type of show”, when this episode’s discussion included an explication of the types of avalanches, gave me the “hey, I never noticed that” experience and also triggered a memory. I’m a native, English speaker who grew up exclusively in the ‘Deep South’ region of the US; and, I did not have experiential knowledge of ‘snow’ whatsoever. (ref. ” ‘Snowmageddon’ in Birmingham, AL 2014″ vis a viz internet search engine results).

Two decades ago, in 7th grade, I took a class entitled “French I”, and that was also my 1st formal exposure to foreign language. One of the first words the class learned was “après–ski.” My experience-to date at the time-of 13ish years of reality could not conceive of a reality where the need to express such a thing would exist was an outrageous concept. How could it be a noun? Do you go to an après–ski? If it was a revelation when linguists discovered how many words Aleutians possessed to denote “white”; it was a revelation to a 13 year old girl in Tuscaloosa, AL that whatever it was these people did after skiing would require a formal symbol for representation.

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