“Sunlight yesterday; dreary today,” he says.
I tease, “Oh, stop with the dismal diablerie, cad. It’s not gloomy. It’s simply a winter gloaming.”
“That’s not what I meant”, he says.
“Oh, I just thought you were awful fond of talking about the weather,” I panto, innocently.
” ‘Awfully’,” he mumbles.
“You are awfully fond of talking about weather?” I giggle, in mock with brown eyebrows arched.
“No. You meant to say ‘awfully fond’. Adverb not the adjective,” he says.
I howl in laughter, “Be careful telling me what I ‘meant to say’; because, you have no idea what I intend.”
There once was a boy.
And, there he was until he became.
He held himself still. Held fast and listened.
There did he discover he was himself
all over again.
She smiles, unobserved, from the corner.
“I have nothing to lose and everything to gain,” she says.
“Except being in the suspended gravity of a win/win position. If you let the pendulum swing you could lose that position of having nothing to lose but everything to gain,” he says.
Oh, shut up and kiss me hard, you would-be Lewis Carroll, s/he says.
<The sound of glasses clinking, followed by giggling>
(The privileged hear yet remain silent)
[The de-privileged chomp at bits and struggle, ecstatic-ally, against their chains, restraints, and clamps]
Tsk, tsk, the menagerie is restless.
The ascent of a scent,
warm and humid like southern nights.
A recollection of something never had yet still known,
like the smell of a world existing prior to the industrial revolution.
Encoded in all minds, like a forgotten dream suddenly recalled.
“It’s curious how ‘illicit’ is used more than ‘licit.’ ”
“That’s not what I’ve come to discuss.”
“Are you sure about that?”
The livery stable holds a horse rode hard and put up wet.
From the projection of the rider’s own limbic system,
thereby was a scythe observed
off in a river of cortisol,
and, then, resheathed into the odd, wrappings
made of hide.
The harmony of the discord between a
nervous system that is only given rest through
relentless fight or flight.
The capture and surrender of two individual, respective attentions.
Things contained and separated by encasings of skin.
Verba Eclipsata Intende A Dinspir.
Your enervated state is the reason why I request your prostration.
I do not require it; but,
I wilt accept it from you.
Until you understand this, I can neither refill nor refine you.
Your acquiescence does not appease me; but rather[,]
(It may prove to please me)
Do not give me attitude simply because
your lassitude overcomes you, wild thing.
I know how to respond; but,
do you know how to af-
firm that you need a demon cleaner?
the luminiferous ether, the medium through which light moves.
falling like waves
Issuing ever out in concentric circles
(within concentric circles)
Of gEo centrists.
A vessel never falls off the horizon.
Our sight line drops off; and
the feet of another appear to
grow smaller (and smaller)
as s/he walks away from you.》
But, there was no motion detected.
A wave and a particle,
both either, as well as neither,
Rods and shafts of sunlight.
Yesterday, I wondered if street people aren’t secret soldiers
and, gutter punks the new hippies.
Restaurants are life’s waiting room.
Offices seem like life’s tomb, while
The den of a living room can be a womb.
The amatory ambit which I occupy indicates, to the ears of my heart, that
I am the succulent strumpet sometimes called succubus; and it is I to whom you succum/b. My scribbl/es are ascribed to Scribes, all of whom scrieve, for example, scriveners, a penman, and amanuensis.
Just scratching lead to papyrus.
Ambit: (n) that which bounds; a boundary; also the sphere or scope; circumference.
Amatory: designed to excite love, sexual love specifically .
Succulent: the quality of being juicy and fleshy.!
Strumpet: a prostitute.
Succum: as under a burden, yield; to die.
Succumb: to sink down.
Scrieve: to glide swiftly along; Also, to reel off, as a story.
Succubus: a class of demon who has intercourse with humans while they sleep
Scribbl/es: to write or draw hastily or carelessly; to fill or cover something with careless or worthless writings or draw; a piece of writing or a drawing that is done quickly or carelessly
•amanuensis: (n) one employed to write from dictation or to copy manuscript like a calligrapher, copyist, or scribe.
In Latin, the phrase servus a manu translates loosely as “slave with secretarial duties.” (The noun manu, meaning “hand,” gave us words such as manuscript, originally meaning a document written or typed by hand.
In the 17th century the second part of this phrase was borrowed into English to create amanuensis, a word for a person who is employed (willingly) to do the important but sometimes menial work of transcribing the words of another.
I it is,
writing to you as A’ licentious Alice, a chalice, from AL by way of LA origin-ally, with houndstooth donned:
It is the sense of loving the moment. It is remembering the sensation of meta/physical love and then remembering the sensation of how it feels to lose it. That ache. That sense of how many times will they wreck me?. How many times will I play the Fool?
Again and again.
Why lose the Fool of yourself? If I killed the Fool inside to be hip, where did the real me go? With whom do you share your inner fool? Can guarding it be anything authentic?
In this mp3 and streaming world, a mix CD burned,
a cassette tape made,
breaks my heart right open. Is that why we have one?
This is not sadness; it is a necessary devouring of self.
My existential orientation continuously regenerates as at the point of origin, and I can be painfully patient; but,
does your silence actually speak: you are only useful until used?
Bemused at the thought. At you. By you.
And, a comma can change the entire meaning of a sentence: I say.
I know your way.
I knew before you showed me.
You play semantics and fancy it is a game?
Splayed pieces parsed in preparation of a preheating oven.
The intimacy of this is but the sense of mind behind it.
I understood that years ago. I learnt it in a dream.
Tonight, I feel my patience hotly boil, as though I must make it into impatience simply to show you my elasticity.
You say: I’ve been here before.
So? I’ve been here forever: I reply,
Curtly but with a curtsey.
Here, where the desire to conduct currents raises meta/physical energy in the nerve endings concealed under my skin.
What a waste to not make use of it.
I would waste that energy on you alone.
Waste it in the face of
I will howl until you howl back, to punish you.
Does that spook you,
you ghost of the man of May?
I espied your inconsistency immediately since taking my flight of departure.
It was my mistake. I should not have allowed you to let me leave. I thought I was being kind, but I was only being polite. Stay. That’s what I really meant to say or do this time.
I abide still. I stoke fires. I test the limit.
I care for you. That is all. I can unconditionally hold you(,) dear.
My love is not tethered to needing love.
My devotion is my loyalty to my beloved. You endeared yourself to me.
I desire you. Now you must suffer the cost of your own, odd charms.
It is no matter of ‘should’ you, but rather, ‘could’ you
tell me true?
If you could, I hold you(,) dear.
If you could not, I hold you(,) dear.
There is heavy magic in your air and I am magnetized.
Some integral things reduce to simple vibrations, to sounds, to sounds like bays, being transmitted through our air.
I wrote all these words first
in longhand to show you how inane I can be.
How frighteningly unafraid
you could be,
should you so choose, ewe.
Or, perhaps, your hands are tied.
Perhaps you have no choice but to be so.
I learn the record of your timeframes
Deliciously diabolical it seems: both your pleasure and your desperation.
Does it make you forget which side of the road on which you ought to be driving?
Were you just checking out your mojo?
Taking me for a ride in your fast car?
There. Am I impressed?
Can you answer this: if I told you that your heart belongs to me now, would you hold your head up high in the air?
Could you even if you wanted?
Could you even say if you didn’t?
The difference between ‘can’ and ‘may.’
Simon says he went birdwatching but only saw his own feet.
Not many birds to be seen in that scene?
Just grounded, flightless birds, you adorable dodo.
I saw a porcupine ripping out its own quills,
one by one by one,
by one at a time.
Onlookers horrified at the sight of so much blood.
The porcupine stabs them while they are stunned into stillness by the reverie-stupor of their surprise.
Slaying ampersand slain.
I see your look of discomfort at this friction.
There was a slight drizzle of rain
as I laid myself
down to sleep early this morning.
I imagined how lovely it would be to
put my hand about your pelvic flair.
The jut of your hipbone.
Cup it like an anchor to
hold me fast
The night sky was so poorly lit, that I could see
Fleeing the lack of light is not the same as seeking a light.
I raise my lantern for you tonight.
If it is lit
it is done so through and not by me.
But, for you is for whom I raise it.
A beckoning through a beacon.
Here is your
Fall, like a wave, upon me.
Surrender your summer-self and embrace the autumnal ewe, you.
I seat you.
I put down
A fun dance, perhaps,
Your food arrives.
You chew and
Swallow it into your
Hallow and also
a shallow wallow.
Low halls, and(,) walls.
how many commas in the Oxford Comma?
Your indignity makes me indignant.
Indigestion is caused by digestion but not
by the undigestable.
Umberto Eco became like a new Hermann Hesse to me, over the last two years.
I recently reread the pages of notes I took from Foucault’s Pendulum. A very hermetic-y work, at least to my unaffiliated eyes.
Here are my favorites.
Believe there is a secret and you will feel like an initiate. It costs nothing…to live as if there were a Plan.
To dismantle the world into two saraband of anagrams.
Le monde est fait pour aboutir a un livre (faux).
Tout se tient.
Books of diabolicals must not innovate.
Yearning for mystery. Initiation is learning never to stop.
The most powerful secret is a secret without content.
[tread the thread]
breadth read, dear.
breath. rath. dare tar he/r.
breathe bare, bear.
her beat- tab.
hearth- the heart,
ear at the earth.
heat herb tea. bard art. he
bather: hare; bat; rat.
rate brat hate
metathesis: transposition or interchange
metastatis: change and shifting
Metatithemi: interpose; change a meaning
I can, could, and will suppose.
Disposition inclined to supposition,
Labyrinths leading no-where.
Douse the flame?
You better grab your dowsing rod.
Addages of advantages add-up
Anxious, ancient hearts, aristocratic.
Arrestingly adriote at a drop of a pin.
My ego is howling like a dog who gnawed its leg off after getting caught in the rusted teeth of a bear trap.
Snared in a trap meant to catch the more prized, highly appraised game,
not this bitch.
The fitt moves through me like beer.
I will piss it out in five minutes.
Same way I learned how to never be cold: let it flow through your nerves.
Don’t fight it.
Move like water
I heard that hard swallow at being told: no, you can’t;
The situation is too volatile.
(It’s okay to be enraged at potentially outrageous situations).
A shot fired. Guns.
A shot snapped. Cameras.
A shot of courage. Liquor.
Vaccinated but not contaminated.
The etymology of the epidemiological epistemology of existentialism.
The dose is the poison.
The poison is the dose.
Salk knew it.
“The dose reveals” says the allegory of Watson & Crick.
Slip tight the switch-blade to its sheath.
The danger is non-corporeal,
ethereal & dark,
I carry naught
but A tad of “go eff yourself,”
Mumbling into mics while the audience mouths the words
as they have heard them.
Metaphysical marching soldiers move back
Prodigious and prolific would-be prodigies propagating propaganda on the cable programs.
They repeat themselves between commercial breaks.
Ex-pats so fed up they repatriate.
What about I, them, they, and y’all, y’all?
[C] Igor’s [A] FIREBIRD.
A kind, well-placed laugh saves lives and creates
So does music.
These things are integral but can
reduce to simple vibrations
(sounds like baying bays) being
transmitted for transmutation into and via the very air, all around,
ampersand surrounding us.
Just a li’l trick.
Hop then trip.
Vessel; cistern; bota; boat; bladder.
Grail; medium; (too short to push it.); contain-er.
Serf; indentured; unlanded,
How/l I appear: Howl I am: How I perceive.
mended pantyhose rationed during/for war/s.
nuts placed for scared stellar’s
Knights need not be brave, strong, or superior.
Knights must care, kindly, and try.
And speak honestly.
there are covert, cunt-try k/night\s, as well.
your Parçigal being
[suddenly (the guitar sound _i hear in my cans_swallows)
The best preserved tree.
Shooting down fuzzily.
Flits under the dragon’s
uncaptuted here, hear?
Shots of light. ( Not too )
Ready to root ball.
A /w/hole in my head or
Needed the same, regardless?
I still need
The gortex, eyelet boots to
Support the bum