And, I can feel how close I am to getting it right.
The way my body moves into the chords.
I could triangulate my distance to it and draw a map of the region; but,
Æ prefers travel to cartography.
So my fingers fret in their work
in spite of
the fact that I do
not truly have the hands for it.
Soft nylon;
four not six;
leading to slightly fewer callouses.
Easily transposed.
Transfixed at first exposure;
but, eff Fmaj7.
Out-rage-us
The night moved slowly through steely rain tapping out a steady hum drum accompanied by a rattling of the pipes.
I lying amongst these ghosts of all the souls no longer embodied.
Bidden recumbent repose poised before a magma flow.
Then, the night wrapped around and slung rain against panes,
slapping blinds behind the other, open windows.
And the scent of you entered.
Full frontal and central.
This goose keeps skirting my grave.
Summoned from sleep to walk and survey the drowsy block.
The Sound’s waves lap slovenly against pebbled shore.
Everyone dreams around but me.
Chaotic states barely contained beneath membranes of skin and delta wave radiation transmissions that no one speaks of in lucidity.
Laying all around under sleep’s spell like corpses awaiting reanimation.
A coronal, plasmatic flare igniting my hair into flaming waves keeping me rendered awake.
I summit a mountain in double time.
The sky unfurls its vexillum of starscape.
Clouds parting in mine wake.
Swallow me whole and suck me away.
⊙
I dreamt a real crafty line, then dreamt I awoke, wrote it down, and went back to sleep proud and satisfied.
But, this recent awakening reveals the page sleeping empty and devoid beside me.
Silly
goose honking out shrill, laughing cries in the face of my surprise.
The trick is to assume anything could happen.
The task is to make it seem as such.
Suspended by imagination, standing there, snarling,
beast-eyed and in a state.
Clears throat.
Twirls circles with one ankle.
Watching the mountains pitch darkness using shadows from a sinking sun
There a’stood at the Dungeness Spit where it never rains.
Next to the only lighthouse for miles.
The keeper never answers the knocks at his locked door.
And his light comes on later and later,
as the days enlengthen the periodicity of thier effulgence,
Like winter was a thief come to return what was taken.
And the noise of the Sound vibrates at 432 Hz.
A4 conversions and changes in the ferryman’s rates.
I procured twelve stones and one pebble,
from the tidal pool,
while the water was low and you slept,
under high moon.
Rock hounding the Sound on
A cloudless night.
Bouldering about, unseen, in all black.
You could see all the usually obscured mountains.
I could see what you were presently dreaming.
The breeze returns. Curt blasts whitecapping the water of the Sound.
My eyes return to your forearms.
Do you think sailors ever smoked to gauge the wind’s direction?: I ask.
There would be other, better ways, I imagine: he says.
But, any so physically and painfully pleasing?: I challenge.
⊙
Hear the sound of my hard swallow
after hearing you
say: no you cannot.
The yield of yielding when facing the inexorable other.
The difference between unmerciful and
mercilessly defines itself now,
Like the vulnerability of engaging in the outrageous.
⊙
Enraged does not imply rage any more than ‘engorged’ does not always imply an
Empurpled structure.
Shutter speeds of my apperature struggle to clearly capture the inside vantage point.
This lurid fecundity from your reinvigoration,
arches my spine into a gateway.
A point of entry becomes created.
⊙
Tell me something good.: he says,
as an outreach.
I say: I chop vegetables and fruits as meditation. Slowly, precisely. I pour my attention and love into the act until it feels as though they butcher themselves. Nourishing before ingesting for nourishment.
Mastery through repetition of action. I heard you swallow hard again, you know.: he replies.
My flow of thoughts continues to stream out from between my lips.
I feel my solar plexus and diaphragm release and tighten as my tongue and mouth shape the exhalations into
spoken sentences, saying:
the vivisection of a tomato is proof of magic and, isn’t it curious that oranges grow on trees whether you have a personal savior or not. I am not religious but I see the miraculous in much of the mundane. A habit can habituate into passé routine without proper inspection or
it may alchemicalize, under our will, into ritual.
Ssshhh. Your mind is always restless, do you think?: he quietly interrupts.
I think I feel a strange pleasure at you asking questions to which you already know the answer. And, yes my mind is. It takes a great deal of restraint on my part, to make it still.: I say.
Proper restraint is how we unleash ourselves and run wild.: says his voice.
The upward inflection on his final word gave the appearance of sounding like a question, even though
it is a statement.
WrittenCasey 