Pt2 Steppenwolf

A wild longing for strong emotions and sensations seethes in me, a rage against this torreless, flat, normal, and sterile life. I have a mad impulse to smash something. P 27

It is remarkable all that men can swallow… Steppenwolves could sipalittle heart and courage from their glasses. p34

Of all the things that pleased and charmed me about her, the prettiest and most characteristic was her rapid changes from the deepest seriousness to the drollest merriment, and this without doing herself the least violence, with the facility of a gifted child. P107

[Hemine to the steppenwolf/Harry] the reason why I please you and mean so much to you is because I’m a kind of looking glass for you, because there’s something in me that answers to you? Really, we ought all to be such looking glasses to each other and answer and correspond to each other, but such owls as you are a bit particular. P108

I felt my partner’s taut hips, her quick and pliant knees, and looking in her radiantface I owned that this was the first time in my life that I had really danced. Harry quote P122.

I am going to teach you to dance and play and smile, and still not be happy. And you are going to teach me to think and to know and yet not be happy… We have fallen out of nature and hang suspended in space… Every human being it says, consists of ten, or a hundred, or a thousand souls. P126

You have a dimension too many. Whoever wants to live and enjoy his life today must not be like you and me. P151

“…the laughter of the immortals. It was a laughter without an object. It was simply light and lucidity…and eternity was nothing else than the redemption of true, its return to innocence, so to speak, and its transformation again into space. P154

Never did sinner show more haste to get to hell. P164

Such contrasts, seen from a little distance, always tend to show their increasing similarity. P206

Watch “Two-Headed Boy Part 1 & 2 – Neutral Milk Hotel” on YouTube

This album can change your life. In An Aeroplane our the Sea. The Neutral Milk Hotel.

Freaky, mad genius and I adore it.

Churches, churches, churches

They are quite magnificent in their way. Most steeples had working bells. Sundays sounded with the pealing of afternoon bells.

Alabam

Alabama is strange and gothically beautiful. A charming place to encounter, but a contentious place to live. At least for me. So I left, but do like remembering.

The Gulf of Mexico is only a few hours away. Summer vacations at Destin or Pensacola Beach. The sand there is soft and fine and white. The gulf waters are lighter and vibrant like the Carribean waters southward. This contrasts with the deep blue, navy color characteristic of the Atlantic on the East Coast as well as the Pacific Ocean on the westcoast.

We’d invite our neighbors, the entire Cole family. Sadie and I were the same age-specifically, being in that thrilling 13-17 yr old range, where you are so excited to be seen and see. People were there year round because it was the cheapest family get away going, often referred to as the Redneck Riviera. My hair likes to curl in general. But, with salty water, hot breezes and 95% humdity, my hair would curl the way I wished it would everyday. Strong memories of walking the beach, feeling my hair blow in the coastal breeze, and being thrilled about how glamorous I surely looked.

The beach was good, you could be and act like yourself. Tuscaloosa required a bit more work. Sadie’s family did not “have a church” and my family, we were lower middle-class transplants upon arrival. There were the rich folks and there were the really poor folks, but not a lot in between.

Tuscaloosa is the center of high society for the state. Population just shy of 80,000. I remember hellacious springs that brought in the Azalea bush season. A staple of manicured landscapes. Ours were pink.

My Mom loved dogwood trees. They bloom quickly and lose their petals even quicker. The dogwood flower is symbolic of Christ’s crucifixtion (most everything in Alabama ends up being about Jesus though), accounting for much of their local popularity. We planted one when my grandmother died.

The Black Warrior river running alongside the heart of Tuscaloosa.

This historic trellis bridge on Black Warrior river demarks Tuscaloosa from Northport. Barges and tug boats frequent the water. There is a 3 mile river walk nestled into the shore of the river, and the University of Alabama is across the street. When classes are in sessions, students traditionally setup hammocks between two trees and study there. UA is a football, party, society schmooze school for the elite. There is an old joke that men attend the university to get an MBA degree (Master of Business Admin) while women attend to pursue their MRS degree (find a husband, get married) and so from Miss to Mrs. Gross, right? That is why this gal prefers to use no title before Casey, but when pushed, I always go with Ms. Just for mystery, ya know!

Best restaurant in the state. They do ribs with white bread. That is all. But the way they do it makes anything else seem unnecessary.

This is the University of Alabama.

This is the university during any given home football game.

Too many people for me, but they seem to have a real good time.

This was the safe place for punks, goths, and plain ole’ rock n’ roll animals like me.

Outside of Egan’s, it seemed masks got melted on faces and gender roles became horrific molds to be fit.

Tuscaloosa society gals, begin preparing in high school with debutante balls, antebellum societies, and finally culminating into rushing a sorority and hoping they let you in. Rock n’ roll animals like me, avoided the feck out of these parades.

Spent a lot of time in this theatre. Remains my favorite theatre to this day.

This is Moundville. The peoples who built the land up so and lived here, were one of the most complex civilizations of their time. I majored in Anthropology, so I spent summers doing archeaology fieldwork for class credit. Totally not as romantic as it might sound, but who doesn’t like digging around in the dirt from time to time.

Tuscaloosa gets dozens of tornadoes every spring. The twister in this picture resulted in one of the most expensive (to rebuild) disasters in US history, following right behind the hurricane damage.

After shot below.

Watch “Concrete And Barbed Wire” on YouTube

Best contemporary Cajun Woman making folk country.

Watch “John Prine – Angel From Montgomery” on YouTube

Do not own rights, paying homage.

Eminent songwriter, John Prine, is pretty much the music laureate of songwriters in the Americana/folk country/bluegrass scenes. This is on the scale of your Leonard Cohen and Bob Dylan. A real musician’s musician.

Montgomery is Alabama’s capital city.

Yeah, it’s not “hip” song but the character of the organ and key arrangement, very simple, sounds just like a Sunday church service my parents drug me to as a kid. The words sound like a very specific type of ‘worn hard and put up wet’ woman who knows what Southern Gothic means.

Great Dirty South song.

Watch “Rickie Lee Jones “Show Biz Kids” Steely Dan Cover” on YouTube

Don’t own rights.

Great version of that steely dan jam.

Ya’ll remember Rickie Lee Jones? … Ice was telling fortunes in the moonlight…

Watch “steely dan – show biz kids” on YouTube

Great guitar slidework.

And it’s Steely Dan. You know what inspired the band name, right?

Watch “The Kinks – Mr. Churchill Says” on YouTube

Ah, concept albums about world wars. Solid, heavy art stuff.

Featuring wails of klaxon and surprising amounts of historical context.

We gotta save our tin and all the garden gates and empty cans are gonna make us win…

Casey Adams shared an answer on Quora with you

What are the best translations for Hesse? by Casey Adams https://www.quora.com/What-are-the-best-translations-for-Hesse/answer/Casey-Adams-78?ch=99&share=2ca2d868&srid=CWTwk

Watch “Lou Reed – Sweet Jane from Rock n Roll Animal” on YouTube

dont own rights, but pay homage.

Not the usual version that gets play time

What an effing slick front man.

Watch “A Day In The Life” on YouTube

Don’t own rights, but pay homage

A dreamy song in multiple movements for a dreamy grey Seattle Sunday

By a bit of water

After her meander, she soon spotted him sitting in the tall grass with an unlit smoke hanging off his lip, facing the bottleneck where the narrow little creek began to come together on itself and collect into a pond. A dam edged the flow at the far side of the water and a fishladder sat right alongside this spillway.

Salmon spawned and climbed there. But not yet, as fall was only now making the scene.

She wonders what he is seeing. What made him sit down in the first place?

His back faced her and yet she knew he was gone. Mentally absconding down some path, having been beckoned by guazy spirits within his imagination. She liked to watch his corporeal form when the immaterial consumed his attention.

It was the way his neck worked. Parallel thrusts of unnoticed nuchral rigidity held his head fast and at its present attention. The slope delineated by neck becoming shoulders.

She considered breaking his reverie, but chose to keep still in the moment with him and bask in the felicific tension.

In the suspension of outcome;

the bit before the finale;

the desire for denouement.

Casey Adams shared an answer on Quora with you

What is the difference between “ontology” and “epistemology”? by Joshua Engel https://www.quora.com/What-is-the-difference-between-ontology-and-epistemology/answer/Joshua-Engel?ch=99&share=eac1d427&srid=CWTwk

Dream of Troubadours

I dream troubadours whisper Provencal words against my neck.

An apothegm: my legs will not stop shaking.

An aphorism: about that which one does not know, one might do best by remaining silent.

Breathe, hold it in and hold in stillness, then release.

Prudence and patience,

my prowess has power adapted to the need.

I work in mystery-the intersection of suspense and anticipation in a heavily muted silence.

Decorously discreet both in dire straits and in heedlessness.

My obliging pruriency sure hopes he pries.

On being mothlike

There’s a light,

There’s a light

I’m a moth,

And there’s a goddamn light.

DIZZY—

HOT——

…….———

I’m a moth,

There’s a light, there’s a light,

There’s a goddamn light

Quote from Tao te Ching

Thirty spokes will converge

in the hub of a wheel;

But the use of the cart

will depend on the part

of the hub that is void.

So advantage is had

from whatever is there;

But usefulness rises

from whatever is not.

Passing Innocence

Any efficacy produced by the endemic radiance of innocence will appear only to those who have already mourned its abolishment within themselves.

After being treated by the civilized doctor for the affects and effects of time, one can only experience natural naivety as she does the sun on her face; and, it is only after winter that such warmth will be rejoiced.

When the Sky Shattered

At that moment, the sky fell.

Like the vibrations from her hand clap overcame the sky’s structure. Cracking like a punched mirror, but silently. Little fissures and crevices branched like spiderwebs and radiated outward, allowing bits of an ultra-violet, purple color to seep through from behind.

As pieces of the blue sky separated, they slid down the sides of the earth, like a reverse snow globe, following the earth’s curvature, down and around until all that was left was a new purple sky.

How math talks? In statements.

Euclid was the dude who gave us (Euclidean) geometry.

He included the postulate below.
Given any straight line and a point not on it, there “exists one and only one straight line which passes” through that point and never never intersects the first line, no matter how far they are extended.

Well, this was later replaced with the assumption that more than one parallel can be drawn to a given line through a given point. One could also make the assumption no parallels can be drawn thusly. This led to a new type of geometry.

It was after this shift in thought that mathematics was recognized to be much more abstract than traditionally supposed:

  1. Because math statements can be construed in principle to be about anything, rather than some inherently circumscribed set of objects or traits of objects.
  2. Because the validity of math statements is grounded in the structure of statements rather than in the nature of a particular subject matter.
  3. Because any special meaning that may be associated with the terms in the postulates plays no essential role in deriving the theorems.

*Clumsily articulated from readings by Douglas Hofstadter as well as Roger Penrose