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Never break your mother’s heart.

On Being A. Maverick

Samuel A. Maverick, a Texas rancher, did not brand his cattle. His cattle became identifiable by the absence of a brand. They are branded through non-branding.

“Ah that’s a maverick,” is what they’d say.

Unbranded = maverick ; an unbranded calf.

THE IS

He said, “Slick-you don’t hafta put effing limitations on the goddamn variables in a dynamic system! Like, the more chaotic the individual parts of a dynamic system are, then the more effing potentialities or organizational principles may be exploited and checked out for utility and efficiency. Why lock in and hoover when the shit will regulate itself eventually? Hmm? Why is it that everyone effing assumes that organic self-organization is so uncommon? … Well, you can still call it uncommon, I suppose, like…shit, like uh, as uncommon as a not great hand of poker.”

She said, “You mean if liberty is completely maximized, despite the appearance of chaos, society will spontaneously organize itself in a sustainable or meaningful way?”

“Yeah.”

“And the odds of this are as likely as getting dealt a losing poker hand- likely to occur more often than not?” she asked.

“Yeah,” he said, “the only precondition is that the individual parts all impact each other’s functioning.”

They Came to a New City

All day, they walked the new city until it was unknown no more.

First, they pretended they were very important foreign dignitaries, stopping by shops and chatting up locals to see how their charade fared.

Then, the two of them settled into an imagined familarity with the area, as though they had memories of each cobblestone and awning.

“Do you ever feel home sick for a place you’ve never been?” he asked her.

She said, “only when I have time for pithy emotional existentialism.”

He saw the sheepish smile try to cut through the dead pan expression she attempted. And he knew without a doubt that she understood but could not given him the satisfaction of saying so. She talked a big game, don’t ya know.


There were beasts, naked figures, and divine entities ornamenting the buildings around them; it suggested an era of time that no one on earth could rightly recall anymore. The figures were strange and a bit barbic.

Wild and woolly? Sure, just like how the world is.

Evil or malificant? Unlikely.

So they paid little attention to the immemorial idols whose eyes cast down and over them.


When they stopped for coffee, she sat in her chair and, he in his.

With calculated nonchalance, she uncrossed her legs and spread them apart until the outside of her knee barely touched his leg.

Both acted as though they had not noticed.


As they began walking again, he told her stories of masterful musicians and composers, and she told him their correspondent ancient poets and philosophers. From there, they manipulated time and causation until they derived some flimsy connecting principle which they proudly asserted as the true source of the art.

They played like this until the central piazza was behind them, and the open public areas turned to thin avenues.

Right before the avenues reduced to shadowy alleyways. She smelled smoke heavy in the air and saw the cafe from which these hazy billows were issuing.

She insists they stop in. After all they were on foot and had not a serious thing to do.

Taking an inhale of indica, she feels her eyes refocus and a big grin takes hold of her face. Then she is flooded with notions of of objective beauty and her eyes widen and light up with with glad.

She speaks to him and millions of words issue forth from her mouth and past her lips. And, suddenly everything defamiliarizes before her eyes and the world becomes more wonderous than before.

She turns wanting his attention again, but finds he’s already been watching the cascade of changes occurring inside her.

He seems bemused.

It makes her feel very young and perhaps foolish. But, then she remembers that she is already a great big fool and it makes her heart happy because she is as she knows herself to be.


Except, she wanted to push it now. Indica’s rashness.

And so she found reasons to touch him on his shoulder. Pointing out things she had no interest in to keep the game a foot. She began touching his upper arm each time she spoke, as though she were ennunciating words through physical contact.

He noticed.

She did not notice this, however.


She was already rapt and her skin broke out in gooseflesh.

She never lost the teenage sense of arousal and desire.

The simple things sent a thrill through her: a touch of her wrist to his hand.

The way he smelled when the sun shone on him.

What it felt like to lean in close to his ear, and whisper words.

She felt her breath as she spoke, imagined how it felt breezing lightly into his ear.

Warm, hopefully. Maybe humid and hot even.

She imagined how the timbre of her voice might resonate. She spoke, therefor, lowly but sweetly.


At these thoughts, her breaths grew heavy. Her cheeks burned red.

She felt herself start to turn out from within.

She smelled a hint of the heat coming from between her thighs.

The scent causes her nipples to pucker fully and immedately. And she feels their perk being teased by the cotton camisole grazing her breasts as she moves her body.

Her stomach feels hollow and she wants to turn to face him and press her hips into his until she could feel his aroused cock pushing back against her and hard.


She walked out to the patio.

He followed her.

She imagined the feeling of pressing her naked breasts against his bare chest.

She tapped him on the middle of his chest with one finger.

The way her pert nipples would react to his flesh.

Then she flattened her palm fully against his chest, felt the downhill slope of chest to torso, and she momentarily forgot how to breath.

The way skin on skin starts to stick together with moisture.

He heard the missed breath.

She removed her hand from him and pretended to need to clear her throat.

He laughed and asked if everything was okay.

It made her tremble to hear him ask, because she saw him playing dumb. Truly oblivious people do not have to act unaware, after all.

She would soon feel like a fool again (which is her lovesome nature) or else maybe bring him to the place she wanted him.

And she wanted more than the simple erotic touches. She wanted to be brought to a shameful frenzy of carnal need. She wanted to be sweetly and wholly debased.

But she had patience.

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Pt2 Steppenwolf

A wild longing for strong emotions and sensations seethes in me, a rage against this torreless, flat, normal, and sterile life. I have a mad impulse to smash something. P 27

It is remarkable all that men can swallow… Steppenwolves could sipalittle heart and courage from their glasses. p34

Of all the things that pleased and charmed me about her, the prettiest and most characteristic was her rapid changes from the deepest seriousness to the drollest merriment, and this without doing herself the least violence, with the facility of a gifted child. P107

[Hemine to the steppenwolf/Harry] the reason why I please you and mean so much to you is because I’m a kind of looking glass for you, because there’s something in me that answers to you? Really, we ought all to be such looking glasses to each other and answer and correspond to each other, but such owls as you are a bit particular. P108

I felt my partner’s taut hips, her quick and pliant knees, and looking in her radiantface I owned that this was the first time in my life that I had really danced. Harry quote P122.

I am going to teach you to dance and play and smile, and still not be happy. And you are going to teach me to think and to know and yet not be happy… We have fallen out of nature and hang suspended in space… Every human being it says, consists of ten, or a hundred, or a thousand souls. P126

You have a dimension too many. Whoever wants to live and enjoy his life today must not be like you and me. P151

“…the laughter of the immortals. It was a laughter without an object. It was simply light and lucidity…and eternity was nothing else than the redemption of true, its return to innocence, so to speak, and its transformation again into space. P154

Never did sinner show more haste to get to hell. P164

Such contrasts, seen from a little distance, always tend to show their increasing similarity. P206

Watch “Two-Headed Boy Part 1 & 2 – Neutral Milk Hotel” on YouTube

This album can change your life. In An Aeroplane our the Sea. The Neutral Milk Hotel.

Freaky, mad genius and I adore it.

Churches, churches, churches

They are quite magnificent in their way. Most steeples had working bells. Sundays sounded with the pealing of afternoon bells.

Alabam

Alabama is strange and gothically beautiful. A charming place to encounter, but a contentious place to live. At least for me. So I left, but do like remembering.

The Gulf of Mexico is only a few hours away. Summer vacations at Destin or Pensacola Beach. The sand there is soft and fine and white. The gulf waters are lighter and vibrant like the Carribean waters southward. This contrasts with the deep blue, navy color characteristic of the Atlantic on the East Coast as well as the Pacific Ocean on the westcoast.

We’d invite our neighbors, the entire Cole family. Sadie and I were the same age-specifically, being in that thrilling 13-17 yr old range, where you are so excited to be seen and see. People were there year round because it was the cheapest family get away going, often referred to as the Redneck Riviera. My hair likes to curl in general. But, with salty water, hot breezes and 95% humdity, my hair would curl the way I wished it would everyday. Strong memories of walking the beach, feeling my hair blow in the coastal breeze, and being thrilled about how glamorous I surely looked.

The beach was good, you could be and act like yourself. Tuscaloosa required a bit more work. Sadie’s family did not “have a church” and my family, we were lower middle-class transplants upon arrival. There were the rich folks and there were the really poor folks, but not a lot in between.

Tuscaloosa is the center of high society for the state. Population just shy of 80,000. I remember hellacious springs that brought in the Azalea bush season. A staple of manicured landscapes. Ours were pink.

My Mom loved dogwood trees. They bloom quickly and lose their petals even quicker. The dogwood flower is symbolic of Christ’s crucifixtion (most everything in Alabama ends up being about Jesus though), accounting for much of their local popularity. We planted one when my grandmother died.

The Black Warrior river running alongside the heart of Tuscaloosa.

This historic trellis bridge on Black Warrior river demarks Tuscaloosa from Northport. Barges and tug boats frequent the water. There is a 3 mile river walk nestled into the shore of the river, and the University of Alabama is across the street. When classes are in sessions, students traditionally setup hammocks between two trees and study there. UA is a football, party, society schmooze school for the elite. There is an old joke that men attend the university to get an MBA degree (Master of Business Admin) while women attend to pursue their MRS degree (find a husband, get married) and so from Miss to Mrs. Gross, right? That is why this gal prefers to use no title before Casey, but when pushed, I always go with Ms. Just for mystery, ya know!

Best restaurant in the state. They do ribs with white bread. That is all. But the way they do it makes anything else seem unnecessary.

This is the University of Alabama.

This is the university during any given home football game.

Too many people for me, but they seem to have a real good time.

This was the safe place for punks, goths, and plain ole’ rock n’ roll animals like me.

Outside of Egan’s, it seemed masks got melted on faces and gender roles became horrific molds to be fit.

Tuscaloosa society gals, begin preparing in high school with debutante balls, antebellum societies, and finally culminating into rushing a sorority and hoping they let you in. Rock n’ roll animals like me, avoided the feck out of these parades.

Spent a lot of time in this theatre. Remains my favorite theatre to this day.

This is Moundville. The peoples who built the land up so and lived here, were one of the most complex civilizations of their time. I majored in Anthropology, so I spent summers doing archeaology fieldwork for class credit. Totally not as romantic as it might sound, but who doesn’t like digging around in the dirt from time to time.

Tuscaloosa gets dozens of tornadoes every spring. The twister in this picture resulted in one of the most expensive (to rebuild) disasters in US history, following right behind the hurricane damage.

After shot below.

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Best contemporary Cajun Woman making folk country.

Watch “John Prine – Angel From Montgomery” on YouTube

Do not own rights, paying homage.

Eminent songwriter, John Prine, is pretty much the music laureate of songwriters in the Americana/folk country/bluegrass scenes. This is on the scale of your Leonard Cohen and Bob Dylan. A real musician’s musician.

Montgomery is Alabama’s capital city.

Yeah, it’s not “hip” song but the character of the organ and key arrangement, very simple, sounds just like a Sunday church service my parents drug me to as a kid. The words sound like a very specific type of ‘worn hard and put up wet’ woman who knows what Southern Gothic means.

Great Dirty South song.

Watch “Rickie Lee Jones “Show Biz Kids” Steely Dan Cover” on YouTube

Don’t own rights.

Great version of that steely dan jam.

Ya’ll remember Rickie Lee Jones? … Ice was telling fortunes in the moonlight…

Watch “steely dan – show biz kids” on YouTube

Great guitar slidework.

And it’s Steely Dan. You know what inspired the band name, right?

Watch “The Kinks – Mr. Churchill Says” on YouTube

Ah, concept albums about world wars. Solid, heavy art stuff.

Featuring wails of klaxon and surprising amounts of historical context.

We gotta save our tin and all the garden gates and empty cans are gonna make us win…

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